I need to learn things. No really, I need to learn things, and every day. If I don’t learn things I get bored and go crazy. If I’m not learning than my mind automatically assumes that my job is insufficient for me, that I need a new one, that I need a new hobby, or a new bass, or a new computer/iPad/phone/pick-your-tech-gadget.
I can’t go very long without learning new things. I get restless, I get disatisfied with life. I have nothing that I can think about. If all I do is work and do normal things around the house than I’ll go nutso. Abso-freakin’-lutely nutso. I can already feel the crazy coming on.
Every-so-often I consider getting a new job, but I like my job. And I don’t know what I would do instead. I consider picking up a new hobby, but I don’t really know what I like to do. I think I should take a vacation, but I don’t really have money for that sort of thing right now. I should write a book, or go hiking, or quit everything and go live on a mountain in the Himalayas, or be a monk in some Buddhist monastary, or something truly crazy. . . . pretty much, when I get bored, anything is an acceptable alternative to what I am currently doing.
So what’s the problem? Why don’t I just learn something new every day? Why don’t I just read more every day? Or stop whining about and make a change?
Well, that’s a fantastic question! And I’m not sure that my answer to that is going to be very good. Mostly it’s likely to be self-indicting.
We all live and die by patterns. Habits. Those habits rule our lives. What is easier: clocking in and clocking out without putting much thought or effort into your work; or showing up, putting forth the effort, thinking through things, innovating and making a difference? Well, if the majority of the workforce is any indicator, I would say the former of the two options is easier.
What is easier: scrolling endlessly through the innumerable (and occasionally pointless) posts on Facebook; or purchasing book after book to feed an instatiable desire to be learning new things every day?
Skimming through Facebook and blogs kind of gives the feeling that you’re learning new things. There are little tidbits of knowledge spread throughout the web, and it almost fulfills that desire to learn, but the knowledge is buried under the clickbait, the trite phrases, memes, and sometimes you can’ the lap but get distracted by the silly videos of cats having light-saber fights with dogs. . . . Ok, I’ll admit that was a pretty good video, but that’s desides the point.
The point is that it’s easier to just browse and drown ourselves in tedium than it is to learn. It’s easier to cruise through our day and complain about our dissatisfying lives than it is to contemplate a plan and act on it. And it’s a whole heckuva lot easier to read self-help books than it is to actually apply any of that knowledge to real life. These are the patterns that really rule our lives, the patterns of complacency and pretending to learn when we are really just passively browsing through life.
Knowledge can be power, but it rarely is, simply because we don’t apply it. Knowing things doesn’t mean much unless we do something with what we know.
It’s time for a change. I need to learn some stuff that I can use before I go more crazy than I already am.